am lame lamento

I can’t see why I’m here

Hindrance everywhere

I turn and see your eyes

Could they lead me into wild nothing-desert-nowhere

Never felt so bare

Trapped and ridiculous

What is important, which dream will come to life

I don’t know, I don’t know

Hope, know there must be something

I desperately need to get a grasp on

Feels like I’m slipping right by the answers

You say there’s a plan

What about the things I hoped for

What about the words spoken out in your name

Is it all for nothing, are they laughing me in the face

Somehow I feel it can’t be like this

But how long will it last

I don’t want to give up

And around me all is shiny and bloomy

Can’t stand this happiness

I’m not in it

Don’t want to see my life compared to others

Doesn’t make sense

Fight with myself

Selfpity sucks

Want to take action but am lame